Tears and Other Inspiration
March 8th, 2007
I'm feeling teary today. It's annoying because I'm not particularly sad about anything, but when anything touching comes up, oh my word, the tears start flowin. Geez Louise, American Idol is not sad, damnit! Even though I'm laughin my butt off at the Office and 30 Rock, I'm still tearin up in between laughing. Hmm, this feels like PMS. Tearing up at commercials, wild, pulling my hair out cravings for chocolate...well, I certainly hope it's pms! ha!
Anyways, I'm trying not to let the tears bring me down. Yeah, sure, I can cry and still find the good stuff all around me. Like all the 17's I saw today. They were everywhere! And the chubby robin who visited me to say, "Hey! I know it's fuckin' cold out, but spring is coming! It is!" The dogs keeping me company. Getting to go into work a little bit late today. A trip to the library to pore through folio sized books of Chagall's art followed by a vanilla birthday cake bubble bath for my artist's date. Yummy. And I just got loads of inspiration from the wonderful blog of Evelyn Rodriguez. So, if you're needing a little extra inspiration today, here are some wise words from her 40 days of everyday inspiration:
"There's no need to stalk, chase or hunt Her. The other day I said that. She is a constant, enigmatic lover. I really mean the constant part. She comes to You , over and over. Do not even be on high alert. Stressing that you'll miss something significant doesn't aid Her. Don't go sleepwalking through your life is all...
Trust that you have a built-in radar for inspiration...
Whatever your complaints are, your resistances, your avoidances, your limitations, your constraints, your frustrations - what if they actually were the necessary ingredients for the alchemical recipe of creation? Whatever you have to work with, why not entertain the thought that those are precisely the threads that She needs to weave Beauty? That our travails is the travel (etymology of the word travel comes from travail)? That's the way of Her open road?"
So, yes, my emotional self, this is the fodder for my inspiration. I'm off to create a bit before I crash. Despite my urge to drown myself in chocolate ice cream today, I did my best to take care of myself today and for that I get a star on my forehead. Hehe.
Oh, before I forget, the opening went well. I did some networking, handed out some business cards, saw some cool art, ate some cheese, and was super duper happy to get home afterwards and get into flannel jammies.
13 Responses
I’m so glad the opening was a success. The bubble bath sound delicious. Hugs…
Posted by: Kathryn | Mar 9, 2007 at 2:21 am |
…must be in the air. End of a season blues maybe? Regardless you handled it magnificiantly (wow too early to spell that right). Great big star for you. Also fantastic news on your show. Revel in its success.
Hugs,
a.
Posted by: andrea | Mar 9, 2007 at 8:26 am |
I am glad your art opening went well. I will come to something…an opening of yours if you tell me in advance so I can have someone watch the kiddies. I will hold your hand! (if you want!:))
I love this:
“Whatever you have to work with, why not entertain the thought that those are precisely the threads that She needs to weave Beauty?”
As I move to a place of peace about my past I am beginning to appreciate everything as a gift…even the dark parts of my past.
Xo,
melba
Posted by: Melba | Mar 9, 2007 at 9:53 am |
glad to the hear the opening was a success!!! and no worries; you’re not alone. i totally get teary when i hear lakisha or melinda doolittle sing.
Posted by: ruby | Mar 9, 2007 at 11:18 am |
oh, leah, thank you thank you thank you for writing this post. i feel teary too…and so often ‘we’ (do i mean women? or just human beings?) feel apologetic for owning our ‘just because’ emotions…this is what i love about blogging. you can see that everyone, everywhere shares the same type of experience, and it helps o know that there are warm, caring spirits all over letting you know you are not alone…
you’re not alone!
thank you for the quote about the muse, too. i’m excited to check that link out.
have a good day…one where maybe indulging in the icecream will merit you the gold star anyway.
Posted by: bee | Mar 9, 2007 at 1:15 pm |
So glad the opening went well – could this teariness be a delayed reaction or processing?
Lots of love to you
xxx
Posted by: Caroline | Mar 9, 2007 at 2:28 pm |
Glad it went well.
I am really enjoying your blog.
Posted by: Tori | Mar 9, 2007 at 3:16 pm |
my friend kevin is on 30 rock. he’s the bald guy that always sits at the table during meetings making weird faces. they’re always showing close-ups of him.
Posted by: nikki | Mar 9, 2007 at 4:28 pm |
I’m glad I’m not alone in my tears for no reason, especially when it’s something not even sad! I’m glad your opening went well.
Posted by: kristen | Mar 9, 2007 at 9:17 pm |
Beautiful. Congratulations. I’m picturing you in flannel jammies with a star stuck to your forehead. Heee! Hug, Kelly
Posted by: Kelly | Mar 10, 2007 at 9:29 am |
Thanks for sharing this, really enjoyed reading it. Really pleased your opening went well too, AND you got to cuddle up in your jim-jams afterwards.
Posted by: Elizabeth | Mar 10, 2007 at 4:27 pm |
I’m thrilled to read that the opening went well! Sounds like you are just releasing an excess of emotion from that and everything else. It’s necessary, sometimes.
Posted by: Mardougrrl | Mar 11, 2007 at 5:32 pm |
I read years ago that tears cried for different reasons have a different chemical makeup – scientists collected tears (what a job!) and chemically analyzed them. Those cried when the crier were sad were different from those cried when the crier was happy, or deeply touched by something…. Since I read that, I’m more likely to just let the tears flow, without needing to figure out why. I figure my body just needs to clear some things, and tears can help with that. Peace to you –
Posted by: Caren | Mar 12, 2007 at 12:13 pm |