For my Grandma
November 21st, 2009
I'm grieving the loss of my Grandma, who passed away this morning. She has had Alzheimer's for years now and no longer recognized anyone, but other than that she was quite healthy. She woke up this morning, put on her shoes and socks and then passed away, just like that.
In many ways, as my Grandpa said, it's a blessing. She wasn't in any pain and she's been living in a nursing home for the last year and didn't like it there.
I'm still so sad. Especially for my mom who has been doing so much care-taking of her and my Grandpa through everything. And I'm sad for the losing the woman she was, even though it sort of felt like I lost her a long time ago. And I'm just sad.
Yesterday, I was playing with paint while the inkblots dried and I this little angel appeared, halo and everything. And I didn't want to paint it. I've never really painted angels, except when it was for someone else, so I let it sit, figuring I'd come back with fresh eyes later on. But now I feel like it was for her, my Irish Catholic Grandma. I think she would have liked it, so I worked on it a bit more today, a pretty purple angel just for her. Love you, Grandma. You will be missed.